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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 03:01

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

We were not on the streets..

The only rule us 5 kids had .

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I was seconnd youngest,

(And it was in our own minds.)

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

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We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Why aren't there any Indian girls married to Chinese guys but Chinese girls married to Indian guys?

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

If white people had been slaves, would WLM be a thing right now?

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Are there any penalties for bestiality in the USA and laws prohibiting it?

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Would you join a gym or workout at home and why?

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

He resisted the act ,that day.

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Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

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She married twice! .

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

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But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

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She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

So whats the point in blame.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Would this be the day?

Especially a lifetime of it.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I waited trembling.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

He knew the spot.

I have no regrets .

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

She found it foreign!.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

This is soul school!.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

But it wasn’t much.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

She loved him until the end.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I was very sick at this time too.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

She wouldn,t have been !

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Put me off passion for life!!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Who then, do I blame.?

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

And i lived it daily.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I said to her

It was going to be , some day.

As i do to all so called friends.?

My life is so biszare .

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

One cannot live in the past .

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I had hoped to write a book about this .

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I will be 64.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I write beautiful poetry .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I was scared of men, in general

I don,t even have a pension.

When she asked me how she looked .

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I think the readers, may guess!

I never cut or harmed myself..

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

What did i know ?

So, i spoilt her more .

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Was to survive, this bastard.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Ive learnt so much.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

We all went to grammer schools

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Im still living with it.

All the time i was locked up.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

My family never makes their pension either.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I was 9 years of age.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I could never make a relationship work though!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

She was in good health!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

But, we were locked up after school.

Comes on , in middle age.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)